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I've been creative writing all my life, though with various haitus(es) along the way. IFrom 2010 I started this blog and enjoyed sharing writing and other information with everyone. illness and bereavement supplied the more recent hiatus.

Wednesday 18 August 2010

A Positive Light

Since my father was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s (Vascular Dementia) and PCA, in 2005, my life turned upside down. As the years progressed and we had to put him in a nursing home, depression consumed me, slowing down everything I did. I really felt that we’d let him down. They call it a Living Bereavement. The fact I live 2½ hrs drive from my parents' home also doesn’t help.
Amazingly my father’s recent, remarkable recovery from pneumonia has really pulled me up, too. (We had the local Priest saying prayers and reading Psalm 23 and the staff kept bringing us cups of tea, so we knew it must be serious and that he might not pull through).

It’s like a ray of sunshine
appearing through the dark clouds and shining down on us!
As though Dad was saying:
I’m not ready to go and I’m not unhappy with life such as it is, so here I still am’

It’s allowed me to feel a lot happier and to be able to get on with doing some of those chores and activities that I had always been putting off until I had more energy, as in maybe tomorrow I’ll feel up to it. It was like I was wading through treacle. Being Canadian, my Dad would say: 'As slow as cold molasses'. I know there will be more lows to come, but for the moment I'm enjoying the up!
I now feel more creative again, which is a relief. Thanks, as always, for listening.

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